Why life is so unfair? Why life is so unpleasant? I am very grateful for what I have right now, lovely kids, responsible husband, cars, a house, a nice bed to sleep on , clothes, shoes, etc. But I know, and I know myself that there's something missing in me.
If you are in my shoes, you may wish to be a robot. The robot cannot feel anything, it will be just obeyed whatever you'll see and even you hurt his/her feeling , he/she won't get hurt or upset because it doesn't have a heart that can feel.